New Ish 2

Woke up this morning, my feet hit the floor..

Said to myself, wonder where I’ll go…

Thought to myself, should I try to show her more?

Lied to myself, knowing the answer should be no..

Opened myself, I let you tear down my walls..

Showed myself to you, I let you let yourself in..

Convinced myself, it was worth the risk, it was worth it all..

Cried to myself, the night you let me fall…

Drunk to myself, shot whiskey through my brain…

Kept to myself, all the things I wanted to say..

Cried to myself, the night you left me in the rain..

Told myself, it’ll get better, there’s a better way…

Not sure of myself, not knowing where I went wrong..

Scared of myself, as my heart grows colder..

Writing to myself, that’s why I’m writing this song.

Remembering myself, as the years grow older..

New Ish.

They say when your drunk you say what you feel..

When you sip that drink your words become real…

Speaking my mind, and wasting the time..

All just a cover to throw you a line…

This heartbeat in my head, it doesn’t show or reveal…

It keeps your memory alive in my head, firm as steel..

A short time yes, but just long enough,

To make me think this could be…the good stuff…

A fear so fragile, because of a heart so burnt…

A man, scared to death, to let himself hurt.

You would think by now, his lesson would be learned…

You’d think by now, his heart would be cured…

Don’t come back for me, don’t come back at all..

When you realize what you lost, I hope you fall..

Hit your knees so hard, your heart hits the fan…

You know how it feels, to hurt like this man..

Random Musings

Standing on the ledge, this cliff some people call life

Not knowing where to turn, questioning where to hide.

Jumping in my mind, turning back in my head

I wonder what stands there, over that ledge..

A new experience, something far from here

A life without worry a life without fear?

Or maybe something worse, a pain so great

Once I jump then fall, it will be too late…

I don’t have the answers, I don’t  have a clue

All I know is everything here, it seems so new.

Maybe it’s not a cliff, rather a launging pad,

An area of experience, to something I’ve never had.

What if the reason I cant see, is really only there, to protect me?

What if my life to be, is something I’m not supposed to see.

All these questions, not a single answer..

In my mind, I feel like an foreign dancer.

Constantly spinning and turning, so soft so gently,

This thing of life, is a thing of beauty..